"If I were to say that there was no quality to my life, that would be an understatement: I merely existed."
It started about 20 years ago when I started to feel constantly tired and sick. I ached all over and encountered problems with my memory and concentration. I often forget what I wanted to say in mid-sentence. Simply tasks like paying bills or other adminstrative work became close to impossible.
What drove me nuts was that I did not remember where I have placed my things just minutes before! I asked my physician if I might have Alzheimer's but he just laughed at
me.
In my early thirties the symptons became so bad that I could not work anymore. Eventually, my doctor has to place me on disability pension - because I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Sydrome (CFS).
The biggest problem was that there was nothing I could take for relief. The only thing offered to me was Cortisone. I know what it does to my body so I refused. The only other thing was pain killers. But my boy did not react well to it. Therefore I have to endure the pain until I found my solution.
Recently, the symptoms became so bad that I could hardly do anything. I tried to read, but never remembered what I was reading. There are many times I longed for death. If I were to say that there was no quality to my life, that would be an understatement; I merely existed.
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